The breeze gently blows through the white tea leaves
The smell of hibiscus and honey are enveloping me
I am alone and at peace in the most serene of landscapes
Willowbrook, a place deep inside, my thoughts can run free

This valley, a long time ago, just a flat grassy plain
But for the love of one faerie a fantasy doth unwind
Out of the thick morning mist, her castle rises into the sky
Trees emerge, blossoms bloom, in her wake unconfined

I am paralyzed, transfixed, as she tirelessly works her will
With a flourish, rolling hills evolve and the willows unveil
Wrens and grosbeaks, finches and sparrows, arrive to a new home
Their song a long lasting gift, this unending wassail

Her vision is unfolding before me, as I gaze in wonder
All of the gardens and pools and paths intertwined
Out of nothing this oasis of peace and love has transformed
Can this all be real? Or some spell infecting my mind?

Now I wander along the new paths laid out before me
Breathtaking beauty is found around every corner, every turn
Sounds and aromas begin to overwhelm my very senses
I am at peace in my soul, from all my troubles, I adjourn

I arrive at a manicured lawn stretched way out before me
A small table then appears, under a canopy of pure white
A delicate cup and saucer, an intricate design of roses and vines
A steaming pot, offering fragrance of flower, spice, and delight

My eyes clearly must deceive, for she appears out of nowhere
Then gently grasping the pot containing the hot steeping brew
She pours slowly into my cup as if offering a token of peace
And then as quick as she appeared, she retreats in eschew

Leave I must, though it pains, my journey doesn’t end here
Save a piece of my very heart that she has received
I look back from a distance to catch one long last glimpse
As she continues to build that which she has conceived

I’ll will return again to this land, when it should call me back
I’m sure to see my faerie hard at work, yet living life carefree
Never tires to create and perfect this magical place
Though she may not seem to rest,

She will always stop for tea


There are days that I wake up
Ready for the world
Other days I lay in bed
Refusing to unfurl

But every day I think of you
My heart is growing bigger
And every time I think of us
I gain more life and vigor

You came to me on gilded wings
An angel from above
To teach me all about this life
Of faith, hope, and love

So today the sun shines brighter
My heart is full of bliss
Longing for the day I see you
My love, whom I shall kiss

Joyeux Noël

Christmas is something much different to me
There is not any tree, thats required to adorn
Gifts to receive, there is only the one
This rose is but beauty, and nary a thorn

Not just a dream, she’s the embodiment of grace
She sings like an angel, but its earth that she dwells
I’ve adored her from afar and for so many years
Now my desire to hold her, is that which compels

I look up to her as this untouchable jewel
I should lower my gaze, as she is too noble to stare
For her to catch just a glance, it is all I should ask
Were she only to know, that she’d answered my prayer

When first I saw her, her youth shined like the sun
Her presence is what I wish, to be closest to me
But for a distance away, I’m left only to dream
Someday her affection shall be a gift unto thee

Now I find that her beauty has bloomed like a flower
Thus she comes forward to me, and my dreams do turn real
It is Christmas once more, she stands tall before me
Though we have yet to meet, my love I shall reveal

Now I’m young once again, she looks deep into me
This woman I’ve longed for, for years, is here with me now
Am I dreaming? I ask. She touches my hand
Afraid it’s all but a dream, I swear to her this vow

To you I promise, I shall love every day
To you I pledge, to honor you always
To you I ensure, it’s only you I should please
It is you I wish graced by, the rest of my days
My soul I should give, only you with the keys
All that I have is for thee, it’s the least I can do
So I come to you now, and I fall to my knees
My true love that you are, I wish to be that for you



My breath is taken
A warmth flooding my veins
The sound of my heart
Pounding inside my head
Limbs frozen in place
Eyes fixed in a gaze
Thus, she walks up to me

To know her name
I try to articulate mine
Her beauty nonpareil
Transfixed am I
In an instant, beguiled
Fascination engulfs
My breath escapes me

Smiling with her eyes
Breaks off of my gaze
Turning to acquiesce
My eyes always follow
Never looking away once
A turn, she is gone
My breath returning to me

The day completes
I think only of her
Though I know not why
Life was to change
My heart settling down
I come out of this fog
I breathe in slow and deep

Every day is a gift
Being only with her
Her smile is viral
Her laugh does infect
To hold her hand in mine
I fall deeply in love
Her breath soft on my skin

Time passing like the wind
Soulmates we have become
All I have is for her
My want only, is she
Though the days run thin
Time eroding more
Short of breath I become

Now a lifetime away
I think of her smile
The touch of her hand
A soft kiss on her lips
I’m beguiled once more
The warmth inside of me flows
Verily my breath,

She still does take



Tonight was to be when our time would begin
A story born many years, perhaps a lifetime before
But that is over this night, thus everything changes
Oh, but what I thought I did know, I knew not to look for


She came to me on a whim, just a question she had
But that moment I knew as I looked in her eyes
This would start a journey that would define our lives
Never to defer or end, lest one of us dies

So young and naive was I, in the world on my own
Not looking at all for a friend or a mate
Yet she stood before me, in need of some aid
I was there to assist, not to know this was fate

Time, we did have, no hurry was life
Thus, our bond it would build, each encounter we had
So as time would go by, and before we could know
This was to be no affair, nor to pass as a fad

Years would pass by, and together we’d flourish
But we were not to take note, as youth would obscure
Petty and jealous at times, to what is truly ahead
Yet when essential to take heed, my nature demure

To be with each other, more and more every day
Our adventures together, oh, such joy it would be
Soulmates we’ d become, so strong that we were
Inseperable without doubt, that, we both would agree


So real was this becoming, yet unable to see
Always linked together, not once to commit
Our lives continue to pass, the window slowly to close
These true feelings we had, but loath to admit

When miles came between us, still did we thrive
We’d travel any distance, just to be with the other
A best friend so dear, that no one would replace
The finest summer we had, us being together

One day we would find ourselves, altogether alone
But a chance we would have, to admit to our fate
Just some words, or a gesture, is all it would take
A feeling building inside, as if on our first date

So tonight is the night, our new life should begin
Our discourse intense as we shared our affections
Talking into the night, as done never before
Yet for all of our years, a revealing connection

So for all I thought that I knew, thus I never did know
That despite what we had, something still was undone
What should have provided a progression for us
This starting anew, still had not yet begun


Then I’m startled awake, a cold sweat over me
Was this all but a dream? So long ago it was now
Waves of panic and regret, start to infect my mind
What should have been never was. It escaped us somehow

Years will I spend, endless searching for her
Life moving despite the void, always inside of me
I look in others for her, never once would I find
Search I must to find out, just why we couldn’t be

One day a message arrived, so I look to inquire
It’s a letter from her, my heart skipping a beat
She is reaching for me, looks for answers herself
What went missing for her, left less than complete

What happened to us? Leaving a long held regret
When we both could admit, our time had since arrived
Though our lives had moved on, many miles we would go
Yet it seemed that we both were left somewhat deprived

But so many years later, it is tonight once more
We find ourselves back in that place, as though time had not passed
Swept into each other’s arms, fate providing one more last chance
Our hold on to each other, now to endure at long last


When I’m alone I write my thoughts
No one I believe will ever see these
Feelings I try to articulate in words
My troubles do wane, I become at ease

I stare at papers strewn about my desk
So many stories that I have penned
To have others see, I would diminish
These words indeed, my faithful friends

Days may pass with no words to write
I stare down with my pen, securely in hand
Yet nothing inside of me will evoke
No thoughts, not a thread, nor a single strand

I return later to try and regain my calm
Something new is here, it catches my gaze
A small note it is, inscribed is a heart
Affixed to a story, is this token of praise

Whence did this come? To whom can I thank?
Such a small gift, but for me it’s much more
A seed of inspiration, I prepare to sow
How could this reshape my mind from before?

These notes did persist, from time to time
Always they do arrive, when I need it the most
How this person discovered, I shall not ask why
So I continue to write, hope they welcome my post

So to my friend from afar, so grateful am I
When words lost direction, you gave me my aim
When I search in the dark, you give me a light
Я дуже вдячний, I proudly exclaim



So young was I when first we would meet
And young too was she, as she entered my life
New feelings are flowing, things like never before
So quick we are to live on the edge of a knife

I’ve transformed so much, in ways I could never convey
For before I met her, my desires concerned only me
Such an evolution was this, for I’ve adapted my ways
Never again to be the same, my first true love was she

To me, I was learned, beyond all of my years
The world, I now contain in the palm of my hand
No danger would beset me, so very strong was I
The world we would rule, right from this heartland


So many things we would do, and the places we’d go
With her I did believe nothing could befall me
So mature I have become, in such a very short time
My power to conquer the world, and to fall on one knee

As there was no one before, no one after there shall be
I have made up my mind that my course has been set
So confident I have become, and so fixed in my ways
Life decrees without second thought, and without one regret

Oh so young I was, still a lifetime ahead
The control I believed I did have, would soon slowly decay
For I would not see a storm coming, my vision obscured
My confidence beaming inside, surely was soon to betray


So portentous and boorish thus I had become
The only person for her, that could only be me
Invincible I am now, not a wound I will take
It is a complete perfection, that I verily decree

Through an intoxicated haze, I succumb to this wave
Long to forget what it was with her, that I once first felt
A trail of bodies behind me, I do stumble ahead
The deck running so thin of the cards I’d been dealt

Then one morning I awoke, and gazed through bleary eyes
The sheets torn to shreds, blood soaked, all around me
Skin cut deep to the veins, where’s that bottle I’d drunk?
A thousand pieces of glass, a pile of bloody debris


How long was she gone? I know so little this morn
From the shattered bottles around, a good week I would say
It would be several days, as I tend to my wounds
Then another few more, as I sit in dismay

Weeks would pass by till I could get through a day
While I look for any answer on just how it turned bad
So much I thought I had known, oh, but how wrong I was
Now every day after day is just dismal and sad

I would go on from here, looking for what I once had
Making mistakes all the way, with despair in my wake
Leaving all too many souls bruised and broken behind
Barely wanting to give, always quick on the take


One day I’d finally slow down, just enough to take note
That girl so long ago was still deep in my heart
To look, I have not, but I could find her should I try
Yet I’d resigned long ago, forever we’d be apart

So many years have passed now as I look back to those days
Beyond a fool I had been, and playing games with our lives
Yet the thoughts always drift back to when we were one
We noticed not if night came, nor if day would arrive

With our lives out before us, we could care not of it all
As if we knew our time together on this earth should be fleeting
Never to notice of people or places all around us
Or knowing that what lies ahead is defeating


Then a note arrives one day, quite unexpected it was
In an instant the memories will wash over me
Just like that I am transported back into that time
This picture of her, and my spirit is set free

So much of my life, so many lives I have scorned
But for one young girl whose love I never have matched
She is the first in my heart, and never to be eclipsed
Who I thought truly long gone, she was always attached

Tonight I feel like the young boy, from ages ago
Who felt giddy and nervous and all but complete
To engage with her now, that a lifetime passed by
Though so young was she when first we would meet