Time

The clock on the wall reveals the impending divide
What started with days, has been whittled to minutes
When first their eyes engaged, time was far from their minds
Now feelings devolve, as if pushed to their limits

A life time to be lived, in a few short days
A thousand miles were journeyed, since they had just met
From adolescence to adulthood, they’ll mature in this time
And every moment to come, they will never forget

Two souls utterly different yet exquisitely close
Born lifetimes apart, but for this moment united
Permitted briefly, the angels, have allowed this to be
So these hearts, as new stars become sublimely ignited

Life in essence on pause, as they burn bright and hot
This pair is but one while their moment lays open
Worlds so different they travel, heretofore fiercely aligned
The time had finally arrived, years of dreaming and hoping

So much yet to learn, though no interest in creed
A consensus unlikely, and no value to gain
Time spent searching and exploring, baring all truths
Taking in all of the other, never once to complain

Simple pleasures in life taking on greater import
Just to stroll and hold hands, is a cogent force
Things taken for granted, much more relevant now
All contact essential as they follow this course

So familiar they are, and still as awkward as teens
Knowing the other for ages, yet each touch so new
Lips meet as they never had, hearts pounding in tune
Every movement connecting, never once a miscue

But for the clock on the wall, ticking mercilessly on
This fairy tale unfolding, meets boundaries inert
Ignoring this finality, they delay what must come
Knowing the wounds in store, profoundly shall hurt

Though the time it is fleeting, exhausted it is not
The two consumed in each other, hardly pausing for air
Interwoven are they, not a care for the world
This moment in time, nothing ever could compare

In this brief moment, a new love thus far blooms
A passion different in nature than what they had known
What took years to build, a love complex and deep
Swiftly eclipsed by that newly nurtured and grown

Eyes fixed on each other, as if connected some way
This deep soulful gazing into each other’s core
Their bond so powerful now, nothing could rend them asunder
Yet for as strong as this grasp, the only want is for more

The clock on the wall, thus now taunting the pair
For no matter what binds, time unwavered to subversion
This invisible force transcends all that’s been wrought
To reduce this elegant ballad, to a minor excursion

So to give in, they must, for this battle best forfeit
Keep time as an ally, as someday again they shall meet
Release though, they must, the atomic hold that compels them
This is an endless struggle, thus a fait accompli

For what was never considered is upon them right now
No more stealing away cherished moments at night
Yet with eyes full of tears, the two do venture out
The tour waiting, and looming, before they took flight

Now the clock lay in ruins, twisted and broken, it’s forsaken
Long departed are the pair, from this perverse invigilator
Though it dictated the cadence, and concluded the event
They escape into the night only to divide moments later

The only thoughts now between them, future events unabated
The two prepare to embark, their worlds start to cleave free
Ripped apart they’ve become, tumbling endless in space
Now the wait to endure, is the deepest of seas

end.


This is a narrative of my destruction.
The night I shall take my last breath.

When I move on to the next life. Should there even be one.
It’s depression that is my love. The sinking feeling I adore.
Always suppress the urge to heal. Darkness is what I wish.
So many want to see me thrive. Yet I need to take no friend.
No dialogue at all with others. Only to be alone, is my desire.
Stimulation is only in my mind. Never physical contact for me.
What I crave is what I can steal. Taking for me, ignore all others.
While I put a smile on all of my lies. They know not me at all.

My time on earth not long. Somehow I’ve always known.
Old age, I could never see coming. My future extinct.
A void portends in the distance. I cannot deny that it approaches.
I know that my end comes. Soon, yet not soon enough.
For this I shall fear not. I’ll pass quite and calm like the fog.
Though my family grieves. The end is best, as they will see.
For I am a liar and a cheat. Only shame I would bring them.
So many voices inside of me. Only one thing should quiet us all.

I can’t save you. Stay far away, lest you drown with me.
The blackness awaits. This time is at hand. No longer should I dwell.

Like a vapor, I’ll fade from all of your minds.
Soon nothing will remain, as she now arrives.
Like a dog, I retreat far away, to pass on my own.
She shows me the way, leading me into the dark.
Whispering in my ear, encouraging me further.
Not letting me look back, there is nothing for me.
She tells me it is time, and takes me in her arms.
Wrapped in her warmth, my torment is over.

This is the narrative of my end.
The night I took my last breath.

Desolation

Nothing at all, I forever remain
Into the dark, where I resign to belong
Cold and naked, exposed to the earth
Cursed to choose only that which is wrong

A liar, a thief, I swindle them all
Seek only for me, and never to give
Selfish and unkind, a life that I chose
I haunt their dreams, for as long as I live

Can I supplicate or repent?
Do I endeavor to try?
For whom would I approach?
Will I just feed them my lie?

It’s so late for me now, too late in-fact
I’ve accepted my life, and sealed my fate
Sentenced to torment forever, exposed I lay
Seething inside with anguish and hate

Come only to me as I tempt and beguile
Make promises I’ll break, to you and to all
Torn to pieces I will leave you, is my only vow
A ruinous wake behind, once again I will fall

All the lives affected, ones I’ve infected
Destroyed are they all, bloodied and scarred
If I could command it, I’d swear never again
But deference to control, I will always discard

Year after year this cycle never to break
Slowing down with decay, I grow weary and old
I look in the mirror to see a shell of a man
Life laying in waste, always distant and cold

Punished again, as I’m withered and dying
They hover above, I look up at those faces
Seeing agony and grief of the lives I had damaged
This eternal reminder of all my disgraces

Paralyzed with pain, I lay broken and bare
As each of these souls come walk unto me
Their heels dig into my skin, tearing apart what is left
My vestiges remain, though I should never break free

Naught but a stain should persist, as people walk past
Slowly fading away, beaten into the earth
Existence erased from those ravaged by thee
No trace to be ever found, not of life, nor of birth

Apart


Apart, alone, and far away
She speaks to me from across the expanse
Hanging on the very words she says
Never convinced we had a chance

Young is she, and on her own
I am resolved to wait quiet for her
With unique journeys, our lives deny
What could become, forever defer

Days then weeks, lead to months and years
Never far from my core is she
With miles and time to define our lives
Forever to be apart from me

When we were together, time did pause
All distractions from life ebbed away
Fixed on her eyes, and long chestnut hair
For just a moment, it is someday

Our paths distinct, never to cross at all
The bond within always to cherish
Though we are ever growing distant
An ardor that never shall perish

Now I look in the mirror, and I have gone grey
Lines around my eyes profess my decline
Yet when I think of her, my youth does requite
But for us, I did long since resign

Though worlds apart, a light doth shine
Keeping me from going adrift
She calls to me, I am there evermore
This fervor a perpetual gift

So to her I compose, that she will know
From across the sea of time and space
A part of me remains forever reserved
Ages away, from a moments embrace

Red

All of my thoughts are possessed
An essence of vapor pervades
No resistance is met
It courses through my veins
I view an ashen panorama
All around is grey, hopeless, faithless
Sorrow endures, a lifetime away
Despair is impending
A crushing departure
No one lingers
I fall, again

I arise
A brilliant light erupts
There was none before
A beacon appears
A promise of faith
A savior of hope
I breathe in a final time
A calm washes over me
Sorrow now a distant memory
The world spirals away
I fade from black and white
To red

Remnants

Looking down on the earth from high aloft
Alone once again, I touch the sky
A thousand years past, since we had met
A thousand more to go, I am cursed to fly

Painted scenes below, remind me of days
I held you close, as you quietly cried
Days fleeting as time speeds endlessly fast
I can’t stop it, I’m powerless, to turn the tide

Your innocence and beauty imprint on my soul
A memory, a vision, the only possessions of mine
Those were days, we swore, that would never end
Days now long past, there is nothing but time

Now soaring from the heavens, I am looking for you
Your memories are taken, as you start to deny
Perhaps just a dream, like smoke, I’m slipping away
You gasp and cry out, your words do decry

But then I, just a remnant, do barely remain
Though your memories have faded, I never retreat
Return to your world, no wish to look back
Then you gaze up, and wonder, I succumb to defeat

Are you looking for something? Just a glint of light
It’s nothing, you admit, as your gaze breaks free
You turn slowly around, and brush it out of your mind
A thousand more years to go

A thousand long left behind