A Minor Drought – May 28, 2019 (sticky)

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img_2173However you found me, I’m glad you made the journey.

Hello to my several followers, most of whom seem to be in Eastern Europe. Whoe knew that my appeal would extend out so far, to be picked up by a selft few people. Well when I thought this site would grow organically, I was thinking a little more than this. However, that has never been my intention or my motivation, so I’m not disappointed or excited, I’m just making an observation about it.

I’ve nothing interesting to report, other than you may have noticed a dramatic slowdown in the last few months. I’ve not been terribly motivated to write. That either means my life is going very well, or I am so horribly depressed, I dont have the energy or interest. I’m not sure which yet. I’ll let you know if I figure it out.

At anyrate, I’ll be popping back in and posting more. I need a real gutrenching experience to get me going again. That sounds awful! Such is life.

Welcome again and thank you for taking the time to visit.

http://thesearemydarkestdays.com

 


As I’ve mentioned numerous times before, unless otherwise noted, everything here has been authored by me, and me alone. It belongs to me, and may not be used for any purpose without my permission. Now really, who would even do that right? I know, preaching to an empty room, but there it is.

Regards,

–b

A New Year – January 14, 2019

However you found me, I’m glad you made the journey.

Happy New Years to my fan! I think maybe I have a couple now, so next year I should have about 4 followers. That is the type of organic growth I’m talking about.

There is no real organization here, I post when I post about what is going on with me at the time. I will bounce from Love to Hate all of the time. That doesnt really mean anything. When these are ready to be born, nothing stops them. So please comment, and as long as you are dishing only praise, I will approve you straight away. Just dont crush my fragile self esteem by providing constructive criticism. I dont want it.

Welcome again and thank you for taking the time.

http://thesearemydarkestdays.com

 


As I’ve mentioned before, unless otherwise noted, everything here has been authored by me, and me alone. It belongs to me, and may not be used for any purpose without my permission. Now really, who would even do that right? I know, preaching to an empty room, but there it is.

Regards,

–b

Getting reckless? – October 15, 2018

However you found me, I’m glad you made the journey.

So in the past few weeks I’ve given a few people this url, which has violated my original decision to let this grow organically, if it were to grow at all. I talked with my doc about this blog, and she figured that I really wanted people to read this. I had to immediately interject, “not just read, but read and be moved. to read and to love it”.

If you’ve been following along, I have discussed my pathological desire for attention and praise. If that wasn’t hard enough to deal with, it’s that the opposite of those are devastating to me. If I know someone is coming to this site, I will hold my breath until I hear back from them (hopefully I do, I cannot hold my breath that long). God help me if I ever get a luke warm reply. Constructive criticism is forbidden here. I’m libel to set fire to this blog if someone reacted poorly.

So maybe giving out the url is being a little reckless. I hope that doesn’t come back to bite me in the ass.

http://thesearemydarkestdays.com

 


As I’ve mentioned time and time again, unless otherwise noted, everything here has been authored by me, and me alone. It belongs to me, and may not be used for any purpose without my permission. Now really, who would even do that right? I know, preaching to an empty room, but there it is.

Regards,

–b

Sep 23, 2018 – Existing

However you found me, I’m glad you did.

Welcome to my site. Don’t mind the solitude, this site was never intended to solicit traffic. I created this site as a place for me to upload things that I have written, and can access from across my devices. Yes I know there are other ways to do that, but this was what I chose.

Unless otherwise noted, everything on this site was authored by me, and me alone. If you are reading anything, you are one of the few people that ever have. I don’t share this with anyone, least of all family and friends. God forbid they find out what a head case I am.


So far I’ve gotten a few likes from someone in the Ukraine. Whoever you are, you’ve stopped by a few times, and thank you for leaving tracks.

Regards,

–b

Why? – Aug 23, 2018

Before I answer that, I went on my site earlier today and was appalled to see adds on it. There is nothing worse that randomly placed adds. This is one of the reasons I really stopped frequenting IG and Twitter. When I saw that, I quickly upgraded the account to get rid of those. As an added bonus, I am now:

http://thesearemydarkestdays.com


Pretty much everything that I have ever written I’ve had no intention for anyone to read. Except maybe some select people that have inspired me, I never wanted to publish anything, mainly because of my aversion to criticism, constructive or otherwise. I’m not going to kid myself this is not for everyone. Hell, it may not even be for anyone!

I talked to my Dr. about this site a few days ago, telling her about the things I have written. I explained that it was a public site, but not published. If people stumble across this and move on by, I will be none the wiser. If someone likes what they read, maybe they will leave a comment. Perhaps this will organically grow, perhaps not. About halfway through this explanation to her though, I realized I was actually hoping she would ask for the address of the site. She did. I don’t expect her to leave a trace here, but I hope she stops by.

To anyone else, if you happened on this by chance, I hope you enjoy your stay. Say hello if you like, otherwise, I’ll just keep on preaching to my audience of 1.

Regards,

–b